When I was younger and thought about my life as I grew up, I imagined it with having my own children. I’d say that’s a pretty normal expectation in life and when you are younger, you don’t imagine any problems with that.
I’ve mentioned in other posts the irregular and heavy periods that I’ve experienced since forever. However, it had never crossed my mind that I might struggle to have children. As soon as my husband and I decided we wanted kids, we were excited … until reality set in. We soon learned that it wouldn’t be as easy for us as it is for most, why had this never crossed my mind? Considering the amount of problems I’ve had with my cycle. We went into trying for a baby very naive and with unrealistic expectations.
We continued to try anyway, but nothing happened. Eventually things got so bad with my health that I needed surgery which resulted in me losing one of my fallopian tubes. Knowing that something was wrong and that we had less chance of conceiving, we headed to the doctors
We spoke to the doctor
On the 16th August 2018, my husband an I visited our doctor to talk fertility. I absolutely broke down in the office, telling them everything I had gone through, everything we had gone through. With no periods, unbearably heavy ones when they did come, constantly negative pregnancy, ovulation and fertility tests, how are we suppose to get pregnant? Where do we even start? We were referred to the Liverpool Women fertility clinic where we hoped for a better journey.
The fertility clinic
We’ve attended a couple of appointments at the fertility clinic and various things have been put into place for us. At one point I wasn’t having periods at all, they put me on Norethisterone and Provera in order to force these to happen. They put me on other medications to hopefully try and help with ovulation. One issue we faced was BMI, as they have regulations in place that mean they can only help if your BMI is a certain figure. We were also advised that it was unlikely we would ever get pregnant naturally. Imagine being told you might not be able to have something you want so badly.
We’ve been on our fertility journey for nearly a year and a half and I don’t feel like anything has changed yet. We still don’t know if children are in our future and it’s a hard pill to swallow. We can hope, we can pray but we don’t know.
Fertility isn’t often spoke about and it’s such an emotionally and physically devastating thing to go through. Lets break the stigma together.